The Rejected Alpha's Vengeance

[HAWI]

"I hate you," Mbali said when she saw the sincerity in Amina's eyes.

"And I love you, hermosa. I love you more than life can ever comprehend. I live and breathe you, mi reina. It's okay if you hate me, because I can balance us out with my love. Explore more at empire

"And if my love is never going to be enough for both of us, then knowing that you hate me, is love enough for me. At least then you will remember me, even if it's to kill me, mi reina," Amina said earnestly as she reached out to Mbali.

She wanted to touch her, and hold her for a while. She wanted to be there for Mbali and love her like the woman deserved to be loved, but then their fate was something that they couldn't even begin to understand.

Love and life were crueler than pain and anger. This right here was the result of things that neither of them would ever have control over a boy. Was it a little too much for their hearts that we're slowly learning to love and live?

"What the fuck is even wrong with you? What are you doing here? Why the fuck did you follow us? What the hell do you want?" Mbali asked frustratedly.

Amina was making it was hard for Mbali to hate her, really.

It was something that confused the hell out of Jabali Lihle, the one warrior who was known for always being level-headed. Jabali Lihle was the warrior who could figure out shit even at war.

She always worked well under pressure but right now, she wasn't sure what the hell this was. She didn't understand what it was about her that got Amina risking her life like this. Her execution was set for dawn and Amina knew that already, yet she was still here.

Anyone in their right mind would have made a run for it, but Amina was different. It was like she was ready to lose her life if that was all it would take to be with Mbali one more time.

She was a little messed up in the head, but could she be really blamed this time?

"You, mi reina. You, dear, are what is wrong with me. I can breathe, or eat without thinking of you. I can think straight when you are not near. I thought it would be easy after Greyson, but lately, all I've been doing is thinking of you.

"I wonder how your day goes by, whether you live well, whether you eat. I worry when you are hurt, and wonder if you're safe. My heart beats for you in ways that I never thought possible. I can't do anything right without you.n/o/vel/b//in dot c//om

"I am here for you, to be with you. It doesn't matter if you hate me and want me dead, hermosa. The only thing that matters is that you're near me. If I have to die, then let me die by and in your hands.

"If I have to be a prisoner for me to be close to you, then consider me your prisoner. I can't turn away because you're all I think of. I followed you so I could see you again. I want you, mi reina. I want you in ways that would put love to shame.

"I want to see you happy, to see to it that your path is not riddled by pain or anger. I want to see you breathe and not have to be strong anymore. I have followed you for over three hundred years and I don't mind following you for an eternity.

"Knowing you are alive is what keeps me sane, so don't worry about me screwing up your plans of ruining whatever is left of my family. I will aid you, if that is what it takes to make you happy.

"I am here for you, mi reina, just you," Amina said, her confession forcing Mbali a few steps back, again.

Everything was confusing as hell when it came to Amina and frankly, Mbali hadn't made a bargain this long for her. But then what else could she do when the heart she was supposed to burn to ashes was no beating for her?

How was she to make herself understand? Sometimes it was okay to love and be loved. Hawi and Ruru had found a way around their bond, hadn't they?

Then again, Ruru hadn't taken part in the haunting reality they were stuck with, if anything, Hawi and Ruru were both victims of fate. So why was it a little different for the both of them?

"And that is supposed to make me what? Feel bad for you? Well, I'm sorry you've had to live with the idea that I'm your mate, but I'm not your mate. My sister marked me already.

"So back the fuck up or I will actually kill you myself," Mbali warned.

She wasn't ready to embrace whatever this was, because she was scared of being hurt. All her life Mbali had lived in pain and rejection because of everything that had happened with her family.

Sure, she had found her sister eventually but she wasn't sure if Malika would stay after this mission or if Malika would leave her ass again. She may have been eating Malika's mate mark, but then what of Elodie?

How would Mbali even face the warrior who had been nice to her and had welcomed her into Sicario and their lives like everything is normal for them?

How would she explain the betrayal to the girl who hadn't ever looked at her differently other than with pure love? Was it a sacrifice they were bound to make? Was this how their lives were supposed to be in the end?

Was she the one to choose her friend's pain while she hurt slowly in the dark? If Mbali was tired of feeling emotions.

She was tempted to turn her humanity off, but she had a feeling that doing that would compromise the missions, because then they would have to be animals, always.

Her friends would have to clean up the mess caused by her Lycan and she wouldn't survive getting her humanity back. That was a gamble too. Damn.

"You don't have to trust me, mi reina. Hell, you down than to love me or even look at me. Just… be happy. That is all I seek from you," Amina whispered as she stared at the girl of her dreams. Funny how they were out here in the night, hurting.

"Bold of you to think I would do anything for you, huh?" Mbali said and Amina stepped closer to her, again. She knew it was easy and there was a chance that Mbali would take the blade from her hands and stab her with it, but did that matter to Amina now?

"I don't have any expectations, hermosa. What I know is your team is bound to kill me and mine. I am just here to make sure you don't get hurt while killing us," Amina said as if it was the most normal of things between the both of them.

Mbali hated that the loss of life had to be something she had to discuss with the one person who was supposed to be her happiness. She hated this side of the universe and fuck was it tempting to just turn everything off so she couldn't feel shit.

"Step back, what the fuck are you doing?" Mbali asked.